“I thought I had gone through something much worse. I thought the abuse and pain from my mom and step-dad was bad, but this? This heartache? This pain? This depression? This gut-wrenching, heartbreaking moment? This knotted up feeling in my gut, the tightness in my throat, the ache in my chest? It was slowly but surely killing me.”
That’s how long it’s been since Eliza last saw Gage and they both feel as if they don’t deserve one another’s forgiveness. He screwed up. She walked away without looking back. They’ll try and make up all the time they’ve lost with one another, that is until they’re facing the choices of either going their separate ways, or hanging on and fighting for dear life.
The fights will be endless. They heartache will be real. The demons will return, and they won’t back down without a fight.
There are some who will do anything to keep true love apart, and those same people will dig deep into their demonic ways until Eliza and Gage are literally no more.
Can Eliza and Gage overcome it all? Will they be able to face the true demons that are seeking to destroy them? Or will they just forget about everything they’ve worked so hard for and go their separate ways?
Sometimes you have to go through struggles in order to reach an ultimate point of peace… but will their struggle be worth it?
5 star review!
**ARC provided by the author in exchange for an honest review.**
Now I thought I loved Who He Is but this sequel absolutely blew it out of the water. I’ve been highly anticipating this novel since I first read about Eliza and Gage back in July, so I was super ecstatic when I received an ARC before its release. I finally get to share my review with you all after fangirling to myself for the past two weeks!
Hands-up from the crowd that completely died when Eliza walked away from Gage… you guys are not alone! After that absolutely heart shattering ending in Who He Is, this novel picks up 8 months after Eliza broke not just her own heart, but Gage’s heart as well. After completing her first year at college, she is now on her way to see her father at the last stop on the FireNine tour before she heads off to New York for a summer internship. Of course her presence at the show is not appreciated by all members of the band. While Gage announces to the crowd that the girl that broke his heart is in attendance, my heart died a little for poor Eliza cause she ended things between them in order to fulfil her own dreams and goals. There may have been a couple of tears leaking out of my eyes in these first few chapters!
In the back of my mind, I knew I deserved his hatred.
While Eliza doesn’t want to run the risk of hurting Gage again, she is in denial that his actions towards her don’t kill her inside. She thinks that she can easily get away from Gage but things don’t always go as planned. After careful deliberation, she knows that the love she felt for him 8 months ago never went away. Though the possibility of Gage ever forgiving her is slim, she has the opportunity of a lifetime to look forward to in NYC at her internship. Obviously things aren’t always as they seem and Gage has a great deal to do with her acceptance into the program and he shows up at her first day in the office. We can all cheer together because this is just a baby step to their reunion!
“I’m not asking for your heart again, even though I’m pretty sure I still own it.”
Now, do you all remember Penelope? Well, we finally find out what she has over Gage’s head and can I say that I wanted to knock some sense into that boy. My heart broke into a million pieces at this point of the novel as you feel Eliza’s pain when she feels like Gage has been seeking revenge on her heart after she left him last summer. Truthfully, you discover that all of her pain has something to do with the threats that Penelope has placed against Gage. When she is shown a new development online about Gage and Penelope’s relationship, Eliza can’t handle the heart ache anymore and breaks down. Being the emotional twit that I am, I obviously cried with her. THIS IS JUST THE MIDDLE OF THE NOVEL; THERE’S SO MUCH THAT HAPPENS!!!!
We were doing so well and I was ready to finally stick this thing out with him. I guess he wasn’t.
Gage and Eliza are separated for some time in this novel after the dilemma with Penelope; two years to be precise. But you don’t read about those two years apart, so you can breathe easy because Shanora picks up right where Eliza is graduating college and FireNine band members, Roy and Montana, enlist her help to knock some sense into Gage. It’s about bloody time they boy realised what is more important in his life!
We knew not to say good-bye. We knew to hold on, because sometimes holding on is the best thing to do.
Holding on proves we’re a lot stronger than we thought we’d ever be.
I’m trying so hard not to give away any spoilers while writing this review, but I can say that you need to go and buy this series now because I would recommend it to anyone. I judge a book on whether it can appeal to all of my emotions, and this definitely did it for me. I hope you all enjoy it as much as I did. I am so glad that the series doesn’t end here and that Roy, Montana and Deed are all getting there own novels. It’s time to continue fangirling over the FireNine band members! :)
Shanora’s Character Casting:
Dedrick ‘Deed’ Parsley
As soon as I arrived at my temporary apartment, I dropped my keys on the counter, blared some Laura Welsh on the stereo, and then trudged for the shower. The water was soothing. I didn’t want to step out of the steam, especially as I was bombarded with memories.
Gage and me on the FireNine tour bus. Gage kissing me, licking me, soiling me with his fervent kisses. I quivered, running a finger across my lips, remembering the kiss we shared when he stayed the night at Ben’s a few days ago. The passion I felt, the power. It was so much, yet I couldn’t get enough. My lips were still tingling from it… from how much I missed it. How much I missed him.
Soon, the water chilled against my skin and I shut it off, ran a towel over my damp hair, and grabbed an extra towel to wrap around my wet skin. I brushed my teeth, cleared my face with handful of cool water, and then headed for my bedroom.
Laura Welsh sang about hollow drums and it was like she spoke to me—like she reminded me of how much I actually missed Gage. How hollow and empty I felt without him while I was in school and even now. In school it was worse. Every little thing reminded me of him. Every couple that walked by hand in hand reminded me of him. All the girls who were smiling up at their boyfriends lovingly, clinging to their sides, holding them like they never wanted to let go… it all reminded me of him. I couldn’t stand it… but I missed it. I rolled my eyes, trying to rid my mind of him, but it was nearly impossible.
Even as I changed into a pair of running shorts and a tank top and dropped the towel from my hair, I still thought about him. Even as I poured myself a bowl of cereal and ate it to the heartfelt music, I still thought about him. Even as I lounged flat on my back on the sofa, my hand on my forehead, staring at the dots on the ceiling, I still thought about him.
About his eyes, his full, pink lips that always sent a bolt of electricity coursing through me whenever connected with mine. His hard, rippled body, the perfect sleeve of ink on his forearms, broad chest, ribs, and even his back.
The ceiling seemed to spin above me as the music filled me, and then I felt the rims of my eyes pricking, begging for the pooling tears to be shed. I couldn’t believe it. I missed everything about him. I fucking missed him. Entirely too much.
There was a knock on the door and I perked up, back stiff, staring ahead. They knocked again and I swiped at my tears, confused. Who could be at my door this late? I cautiously made my way to the entrance, my heart pounding, my steps soft, making sure I didn’t cross any weak spots to make the floor creak.
I took a peek out of the peephole and made out a tousled mess of silky, dark-brown hair and broad shoulders. His head was ducked down, hiding his face, but I knew exactly who it was and I stifled a gasp.
My mind then went into gear. Should I let him in? Should I shoo him away? Should I blast him and beg him to just leave me alone?
In the end, I knew I couldn’t do any of those, no matter how upset I may have been with him. I did love him, after all.
I cracked open the door and he jerked away from the doorframe, taking a quick step back, his hazel eyes meeting mine. “Gage?”
“Eliza,” he whispered. His eyes were tired, restless. His lips were strained, as if he wanted to say something else, but then they relaxed and he ran a hand through his hair.
“Why are you here?” I asked, opening the door wider. He pressed the palm of his hand on the door and stepped past me, his heavy cologne filling my lungs. It mixed with the light, airy scent of water, as if he’d purposely walked in the drizzle. I could imagine him pacing back and forth in front of the apartment building, debating on whether he should come up or not. “Better yet,” I said, “how did you know where this apartment was?” I locked the door before looking at him.
“Frank told me,” he sighed out. “Look… I can’t do this,” he said, running another rigid hand through his hair. A few pieces fell onto his forehead, proving he would need a haircut in maybe three days tops. His eyes saddened and filled with guilt and I narrowed mine, tilting my head.
“Do what?” I asked, stepping up.
“This… I can’t be angry anymore. I can’t act like I don’t fucking care. I want—” His sentence broke and his gaze lowered to the floor. Good thing the music was playing, filling the silence, because I wasn’t sure of what to say, but I knew what he was getting at. “I wasn’t supposed to come here. I wasn’t supposed to see you. I was supposed to fight myself from getting close to you again—for your sake—but… I can’t. I can’t fight it. It’s so fucking hard to stay away from you, Eliza.”
About the Author:
Shanora Williams was born and raised in Matthews, North Carolina. She’s the author of the New Adult series, OBTAINED and the Best Selling New Adult novel, Hard to Resist.
When she’s not writing, she’s happily reading or watching cartoons like the big kid she is. She has a wonderful family that you will hear her brag and talk about all of the time. Whenever she just wants to get away from the words for a while, she’ll spend some time with her loved ones, eat gummy bears, or drown in Coca-Cola and anything else caffeinated.
2 x Signed paperbacks of Who We Are (US only)
3 eBook copies of Who We Are (Amazon and B&N)
Books in the series:
~ Who He Is (FireNine #1) – out now.
~ Who We Are (FireNine #2) – out now.
~ Yet to be titled (FireNine #3 – Roy’s story) – release date TBA.
~ Yet to be titled (FireNine #4 – Montana’s story) – release date TBA.
~ Yet to be titled (FireNine #5 – Deed’s story) – release date TBA.